Wednesday, October 30, 2013
Like any drug - there is the Sweet Promise of blissful joy. Its siren song sings of heavenly delight. Each taste teases the tongue with pure ecstasy.
I CRAVE it's sweetness!
I need the heady high that comes with each delectable bite.
And, like any drug - there is a price to pay once the high goes away. A violent crash that leaves you weak and trembling. The long term effects that wear down your body and your mind. Years of abuse start to show as your body can no longer tolerate it. Its dependency is deep and strong.
Like any drug, or addiction, you want to kick it. You need to kick it, but its hold on you is overpowering and willful.
I am a sugar addict.
I want it.
I crave it.
But, I don't need it.
It is a raging battle to control the cravings, one that I lose often.
I tell myself that I enjoy it, but that is a LIE! The little rush I get isn't worth the damage it is doing to my body, or the crash I have when it finally wears off.
Like anything that is to good to be true - the Sweet Promise from this addiction is a illusion - A SCAM!
Expressing myself with the Sweet Promise of trying to kick a life time habit. Or, not!
Sunday, October 27, 2013
My laundry, more specifically my dryer, and I have a special relationship. The serenity I find in doing such a simple mundane task allows my creative mind to emerge. While doing laundry I can push the outside world away, I can release my analytical brain from its duties, and I can let my mind wander.
It is during this creative outflow of time that I may solve plot issues, discover new characters, fix a scene, have a dialog with a character, or even create a new story. I dedicate my stories to my dryer because it is such a significant part of my writing. It is my release from the real world. It takes me to a place of play and creative outlet. It is my escape, at least temporarily, into a world of fantasy.
To my dryer - I dedicate this to you.
Time to go, my dryer is calling me...
Tuesday, October 1, 2013
Where can I get a job where I still get paid when not working? Where can I get a job where I can shut down everything just because I want to disagree with others? Where can I get a job where I don't have to do right by others? Where can I get a job where it is all about me and what I want, to hell with the rest of you?
I know - I could get a job with the government.
Never mind, I think I would be much happier having a job where I work for my paycheck, try to work well with others, do what is best for the business and it's customers and where is about all of us, not just a few.